Doorgift 2

Initially, I just wanted to give the heart shape tin box as my doorgift during my engagement, but then my mom kept worrying me saying that there might not be enough to give away. So I added some home made marshmallow stick (which I made myself) intended for the kids, but apparently they're a big hit with the adult as well. And because of that, there were some tin box leftover. Sad because I made them all by myself.

Self made marshmallow stick with dark chocolate stripes

 

Self made decoration on heart shaped tin box.

P.S : For the paper flower tutorial, just google paper flower D.I.Y, they're easy to make but for these tin boxes, you need tiny fingers like mine to make cause they're only 4cm wide!

Spiders

Yesterday, just before my mom went to bed, she walked in my room and said :

"Mak bertengkak dgn abah" (I had an argument with your dad)

So I asked "Pasal apa?" (About what?)

She said "Mak cakap, labah2 ade 8 kaki, abah tak caya, abah kata labah2 ade 6 kaki" (I said spiders have 8 legs but your dad insist that spider has 6 legs"

-_- Oh god.

Unlike any modern parents would do, by modern I mean google and point, my mom ran to my sister's room and picked out the dusty encylopedia, ran downstairs and showed to my dad :

"Spiders have 8 legs!"

I just shake my head.

Parents....

Candy crush

These past few days, I've noticed my dad was concentrating hard on his computer. Sometimes I see him sitting at his desk when I reached home, sometimes late in the evening.

It's weird cause his posture and sitting position were very very similar to when he was working except this time, he had his magnifying glass with him (cause he has eyes problem and glasses aren't enough).

Yesterday (oh wait, I think it was the day before), I catched a glimpse of his monitor.

Colorful various shaped thingy (I donno what to call em).

And yesterday, I figured it out.

He was playing Candy Crush.

L.O.L

My dad is far more advanced than I am.

Of wedding and such

You know when you are a B2B (Bride to be), eventually you would have to do a lot of research on how to organize your own wedding, starting from the venue, catering, etc, etc. So I would just like to list some in this blog, for my own reference really, rather than keeping them dusty under my bookmark tab and hopefully it would serve other B2B out there.

So coming soon ....

Of wedding and such.

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Starting off with....

Mini dais

If you're like me, always on a budget (if only money fall from the sky..) yet want something more than a simple bantal for your engagement (why do people nowadays want so much more?), then I really recommend that you take a package that mostly comprise a gown, make up, accessories, handflower and a pelamin (So you won't have headache of finding one by one? My future MIL made the gown for me, a simple one, not so fancy so I can reuse it again for another function. A purple peplum!). However, be aware of their service, the price may be low but they may not provide the best service. I used Wedding Studio, which I found in one of those wedding festival and to be honest, I'm a bit upset with their service. It took 3 visits for them to finish off the pelamin, the first time they were late (like super duper late), second time, they didn't bring all the materials and the third was like half an hour before my event started. So yeah, don't be fooled by the things they offer you. See, I don't even have any photos to show you cause I didn't like the make up they put on me but their pelamin was fine. =( They don't update their FB/blog neither and they have very very poor time management. So save your money and avoid them OK.

I found a few mores back then (while I was googling around) and here's some to poke your nose into!

Sangkar Emas Collection (ade self-pick up & DIY mini dais, useful for those on budget)

Shayana Creation (I think price range RM400 and above)

Kerja Kahwin Design & Collection

Weddings Galore (I think they have a package)

start googling then.

Of birthday and such

No birthday cake this year (neither last year), 

but at least I received a dozen of flower.

I can't thank enough B for making it a wonderful day.

But it does made me realized, I don't really have any real friends here.

Is he the one?

*wrote this last friday, didn't post it as I wasn't done with it and sorry, you can't possible write this post without being sappy. Skip through if you're not in that lovey dovey mode ok?*


I lost so much patience planning for my engagement and wedding. It's a headache especially when you expect so much from a day event.

But you only get married once. Once.

Once, that you'll remember for your lifetime.

Marriage, short, but means so much more than just a word.

and I can't believe I'm getting married. No, cross that. 

I can't believe I'm capable of being loved.

A friend once asked me "How do you know he's the one?"

I don't. 

I really don't. 

But every step forward I took towards our wedding day, he proves me over and over again that he's the one.

To tell you the truth...

He's not the one when he surprised me with a dozen of flower on my birthday.

He's not the one when he says he loves me every night, every day or over every conversation we had.

He's not even the one when he says that I'm pretty despite how ugly how others think of me.

but 

he's THE one when he came rushing for me when I felt so depressed over my work.

he's THE one when I threw my tantrum and got devastated over the wedding photographer, asked him to cancel them and got scolded by them yet still listened to me patiently and tried to make things better.

he's THE one who drove back all the way from Penang despite how tired he was, just because I told him that I wanted him here.

he's THE one because he is who he is.

and I can't possibly ask for more.

You see..

He sees me differently than how you would see me.

He made me feel important...mattered....and loved.

So, if you ask me again  "is he really the one?", I guess I could answer it in a matter of seconds.


A definite yes.

.

p/s : no engagement photos to show...sad, sad, sad.

getting weary

With all these things happening, I'm finding myself losing appetite and lack of proper sleep. I often take a light breakfast and eat only half of my lunch and occasionally skip dinner. I used to be able to sleep long hour but these days I tend to sleep late and wake up before my alarm ticks off. 

I  am worried about my own mental and physical health.I find myself prone to crying even for tiny things and I'm worried of my declining weight.

I'm 146 cm, 33kg and I'm 27.

Yes, I used to take it as a laughing matter by saying I can hide easily in cupboards and people won't think of looking me there, how if I faint, it doesn't take a man to pick me up and sent to hospital.

But now I don't feel like laughing at all.I made funny remarks of myself just to make myself feel better.Truth is, I don't.

I don't because what happens when one day I want to have a child and there would be problems because of my BMI? What happens if one day I need an operation and there would be complication because I'm underweight?

People says that the nearer you are to your wedding, the happier you should be and perhaps the better your appetite? But god knows what I go through right now between work and wedding preparation.

Not having a stable income, trying to figure out what my next career move,, stepping into a marriage world, trying to build a home..it's all sounds like the common problem anyone would face.  Except facing it simultaneously without being able to take one step at a time is quite a lot to handle. 

I guess I'm just tired, of holding myself together that is.I want to be strong, strong for B, strong for my family.

Except occasionally....I trip.

It's so so.......  so tiring.