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je t'EMMERRRDDDDEEEE!

Can you?

I can live without computer/internet for a few days, can you?

sURrealitY

AAAaaaaaAaaaAARRRRRgGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHhhhhhhhhhhhh...........
I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs.

There will be time where I feel like I'm detached from reality. It's overwhelming to the point of ...emm..scaring me? Have u ever felt like u're addicted to something and u just couldn't stop from doing whatever u're addicted to? My friend says that it's worst than addiction, I'm like under drug influence. Pull me, hold me back, attach me if needed, i'll run away and even crawl if I have to just so that I could do it. It seems like nothing can hold me back.

If only I know how to control this hunger....

I'm sure that u think I'm crazy..What the hell this girl is talking about? Let's just say that I have an old brand new addiction and I'm simply addicted to it till I sort of forget my existence. Sigh, if only it goes the same way for my studies!

Oh, by the way, like I said, I've been detached from reality lately, thus the abandoned blog. Since it's november, I would like to wish happy early or belated birthday to my mom, sis, syakir, amelia, thao, dina, dalila, boy...y r u guys all born in november?!!!there're too many to remember!!! i bet i forgot a few more, sorry =(

When nothing goes right...go left

Throughout my high school, I have always look up on ppl. It is rare that I look down on others, let alone think negatively about a person. I grew up thinking, success is a must and failure means becoming a loser.All the people around me, achieved at one point in their life some kind of achievement. At school, many that I know get good grades, some even made early plans of furthering their studies oversea. Others wanting to become doctors, engineers, accountants and I on the other hand, was clueless.

Be a leader, not a follower...But I don't want to be a leader.I like being a follower. Leaders mean responsibilities, making important decision all time. Me, I like sitting in my own corner, I hate telling ppl what to do, I hate making decision, I couldn't even decide what to wear everyday!! I don't mind going with the flow, if the wind blow north, north I shall go.

Unfortunately, I'm stuck in two worlds. A world where what others think matters, money is an issue, a piece of paper bearing the word degree on it means everything, sophisticated gadgets make u look cool and the opposite world where everything else doesn't matter. I am at the moment running after a title called engineer that I myself am not sure capable of having it. I don't know what this title means in Msia but here it means power, the brain in a group, responsibilities, ideas, creativities, innovations, etc. It's a tough road that I'm taking. Those my age have already gotten their degree and they're even called engineers whereas me, why am I still here?

I'm tired of going to classes, taking notes yet not understanding a word the teachers saying. I wonder where's my passion, what do I like? y do I let the information past from one ear to another? y am I not taking it all in? y am I studying, forcing myself to drink cups of coffee just to learn things that I eventually forget later?y and y and y..it just won't stop.

I'm not in a rush. I don't mind working later but the longer I wait, the higher my debt will be. I could not get up every morning, dragging my feets to a place where I don't want to be, doing things I don't want to do, but seriously, do we have a choice? Think about it from every angle (money, family, society,..) and then tell me about it.

Since I am where I am, I have two choices ahead. First option, taking a road where I'm quite interested in yet I'm not sure I'll be able to walk straight and the end looks gloomy. Or the second one, where I have less interest in, still not sure if I could walk straight yet the end looks slightly brighter. So...which one?

i'm just one among a million.always forgotten.

when hate lingers

i hate.yep.i hate.y do i hate?hate is not a good feeling.but thanks to hate we learn the importance of love.right?

actually i just want to say i hate the prefecture.le systeme et le batiment lui meme sont un vrai labyrinth.

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meet milo

meet milo

don't u be fooled by his look.


i was standing, doing nothing, and he suddenly attacked me, trying to climb on my legs...ouch!!!

invisible

what should I do 4u2c me?