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I can live without computer/internet for a few days, can you?
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nini a.k.a a'a
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nini a.k.a a'a
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9:59 PM
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Throughout my high school, I have always look up on ppl. It is rare that I look down on others, let alone think negatively about a person. I grew up thinking, success is a must and failure means becoming a loser.All the people around me, achieved at one point in their life some kind of achievement. At school, many that I know get good grades, some even made early plans of furthering their studies oversea. Others wanting to become doctors, engineers, accountants and I on the other hand, was clueless.
Be a leader, not a follower...But I don't want to be a leader.I like being a follower. Leaders mean responsibilities, making important decision all time. Me, I like sitting in my own corner, I hate telling ppl what to do, I hate making decision, I couldn't even decide what to wear everyday!! I don't mind going with the flow, if the wind blow north, north I shall go.
Unfortunately, I'm stuck in two worlds. A world where what others think matters, money is an issue, a piece of paper bearing the word degree on it means everything, sophisticated gadgets make u look cool and the opposite world where everything else doesn't matter. I am at the moment running after a title called engineer that I myself am not sure capable of having it. I don't know what this title means in Msia but here it means power, the brain in a group, responsibilities, ideas, creativities, innovations, etc. It's a tough road that I'm taking. Those my age have already gotten their degree and they're even called engineers whereas me, why am I still here?
I'm tired of going to classes, taking notes yet not understanding a word the teachers saying. I wonder where's my passion, what do I like? y do I let the information past from one ear to another? y am I not taking it all in? y am I studying, forcing myself to drink cups of coffee just to learn things that I eventually forget later?y and y and y..it just won't stop.
I'm not in a rush. I don't mind working later but the longer I wait, the higher my debt will be. I could not get up every morning, dragging my feets to a place where I don't want to be, doing things I don't want to do, but seriously, do we have a choice? Think about it from every angle (money, family, society,..) and then tell me about it.
Since I am where I am, I have two choices ahead. First option, taking a road where I'm quite interested in yet I'm not sure I'll be able to walk straight and the end looks gloomy. Or the second one, where I have less interest in, still not sure if I could walk straight yet the end looks slightly brighter. So...which one?
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nini a.k.a a'a
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8:17 PM
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i hate.yep.i hate.y do i hate?hate is not a good feeling.but thanks to hate we learn the importance of love.right?
actually i just want to say i hate the prefecture.le systeme et le batiment lui meme sont un vrai labyrinth.
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9:29 AM
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